I'm just as lost as you
here you'll find many useless scatterings of the things from beneath my ribcage...
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Wishes
Light up the sky with a new heart,
That’s what it’s all about, getting a new start
Yet I don’t believe you need a new year,
To fix the problems within yourself dear,
Tonight the stars will shine brighter,
Hopes will make hearts lighter,
Yet I cant breathe now, looking up with fear,
The dark expanse reminding me of a future so near,
I’m still lost down the rabbit hole,
And when trying to find my soul
The looking glass showed no answers,
The coming time, is like a cancer,
There is no easy cure,
For the future is never sure,
So looking to the stars I pray,
Staring them down, I begin to say:
Wish I may, wish I might
Make a wish so desperate tonight,
let the future hold more light,
than that, that has been, let me be alright.
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Hello…
Hello I am the undesired
the weightless girl clinging to porcelain perfection
living like smoke
Hello I am the wasted
the man drowning in his bottle
starting to give up hope
Hello I am the fearful
the parent waiting for a call on edge,
hoping is was just a joke
Hello I am the forgotten
the child that set themself free
freedom in form of rope
Hello I am the reckless
the teen who’s soothed by drugs
rather mindless on coke
Hello I am the faithful
crying for something more
because with loneliness I cannot cope
Hello I am the fine
the one smiling all the time
hiding all within that’s broke
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What A Fool I Am
I have always been the fool, but the most foolish thing I ever did do
was tell you dear, of my love for you
Oh the devil that slept inside your skin
How blind was I to not have seen him?
And in my weakest moments those seeds you planted patiently
Thoughts that grew into my mind, yet to you acted decently
The fears the insecurities, oh how my heart has been noosed
And so faintly that you never once had to seduce
How cruel is your love that strangles me
That you lead me on and tell me to bleed
I should turn my blade upon your heart
But I can’t bring myself to do it, you knew it from the start
Yet here I bleed and weep and die
A simple question, I asked you, why?
And you had no emotion, your heart of stone, you terrible girl
This love was at such a cost, no precious pearl
I have been so blinded by what I wanted most
And at my pain you seem to boast
That it was your fun that caused it all
That you could command me to jump and to fall
And i doubt that even as I take this leap
At my cold body you should weep
I hate you Lover, how dare you be called so
One who knew my weakness because I thought it safe to show
Life is hell. it is you who made it this way
Yet loving you, I’ll be the only one with the price to pay
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The Train Station Affair
We’re going to take the train
Grab your coat, run out in the rain,
I’ll be at the station waiting,
All our things in a small brown suitcase,
My prized possession the smile on your face,
We’re getting out of this small damned town,
Never again will we have a reason to frown,
And on your shoulder where my head does rest,
The further moves the train does our love’s catalyst,
Sighs content and rain caressing the glass,
Happiness forever is on the verge, this our chance at last
